Beautiful post! Your feelings resonated in my heart and I know that I, too, have to nurture that 5 year old little girl who lost her father. He was my love. Mom did what she could to get by with three children. She was angry for the longest time and we lived walking on eggshells. It has taken most of my adult life to be able to see it from her perspective. Unfortunately, she died before we could reconcile. I truly don’t know if it would have been possible. I struggle, too with love of self and a healthy sense of self worth. I have dearly enjoyed your posts and feel as if I have found a kindred spirit. Hugs and best wishes for you.